It is interesting to note the things that remain a part of your life when you relocate. In my experience, those are the things that define you, that you carry with you. It does make sense: when you change locations, you leave behind the places and the people. So all that you are left with is yourself. Ergo, repetitions in situations and events are indicative of the manifestations of your OWN personal qualities or tendencies.
Everyone can agree that you can never run away from your problems. However, can't "running away" help you to solve them? By going to another place, you can examine repetitions, consider them, and if you think it's necessary, you make personal adjustments. Perhaps running away for a while can help us become more in touch with ourselves. Is this the purpose behind the long-upheld tradition of the pilgrimage? Perhaps it isn't just about making a religious gesture; perhaps it is about sourcing oneself, discovering who and what we truly are.
I feel myself sliced neatly open and my various parts of my insides shown to me with a clear, calm precision. In many ways, I like this, though I do often find it unnerving. But there are always those small missed bits that you never really get to see. I know that they are there, but what are they? Do they matter? Are they important? Or at the end of the day, am I really just imagining them?
Where is the line between intuition and paranoia? Self-awareness and self-fulfilling prophecies?
What is it to know thyself?
Every day, I am sure that I do.
Every day, I am sure that I don't.
You know, I was just thinking the other day that I hadn't seen a blog post from you in a while. Nice to know you're not dead. :)
ReplyDeleteFor the topic at hand, what you're talking about isn't running away per se, but instead a "strategic withdrawal". A different location provides an updated point of view, which can allow you to view things in your life (or even yourself) in a whole new light; sometimes that's good, sometimes that's bad (well, not "bad" exactly; you see unpleasant truths, which is still good, just difficult).
I sometimes wonder if it's more important to actually know yourself, or to always strive to know yourself (knowing that it's potentially impossible). Sometimes it's the journey that's more important than the destination, and this might be one of those times, I think.
I like it! :)
ReplyDeleteGirl, I never know.
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